Dreams and Worries
The past two nights, I have had some crazy lucid dreams. Night before last, I dreamt that I was on LSD. Why? I do not know, but damn, that was a colorful and vivid dream. And for the record, no, I have never done acid. Last night, I had this dream that I meant this goth girl in a bar that was closing down and we went back to her place to watch the Blue Angels fly over her house. Odd. Either way, both dreams were super realistic, like I was watching a movie or something. Anywho, I mention this just because it is a good sign I am sleeping harder now and they were extremely realistic, cool dreams.
On to the worries part. I worry about my brother and his girlfriend. I am a worrier in general but it seems that as of late they have been going through a rough patch and I feel for them. I am especially worried for my brother because I just have this vibe that says she is going to break up with him and for no good reason that I can think of. I dunno, it really is none of my business but I just find it curious that I have let their relationship bother me so much. I constantly wonder when the hammer will fall and my brother will find himself single. It feels like when I was married and or going out with Mushi. This may also be the reason why I am bugged about a relationship that I have absolutely no business being bugged about aside from the fact that the guy is my brother. They make a good couple and I would hate to see them break up. Both of the families involved like each other and get along very well. She is kind of like a little sister to me and I would hate to see her go. I don't want to see my brother hurt especially. Anywho, I try to say supportive things to my bro and hope everything turns out alright. Hopefully, they will. I hope I don't constantly worry about breaking up in my next relationship; it doesn't make things very much fun. This I know.
On a side note, while talking to my brother I found out that he was drinking when he was a sophomore in high school. Damn...I didn't start until I was almost done with my first semester of college and I thought I was starting early. He doesn't drink anymore however, because he had a bad experience with vodka and a beer bong that made him pretty sick. That and he was a jock so when sports started up he had to get into shape. It is funny how almost everyone goes through a streak where they drink nonstop and get it out of their system. At least hopefully, they get the urge out of their system. I still drink but nothing like when I was 19-21, all of those years blur and I don't remember a lot. Ahh...youth.
Thought to ponder: When you dream, how does your body know what falling feels like and how does it trigger that sensation while in a dream state? Why can't we trigger that sensation in a waking state without actually falling or tripping? I am sure there is a scientific answer to it but I have been thinking about that today.